In state of depression

I put a big smile on, but I don’t like how I look

I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

I sing a song but no one listens to me

I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Why am I this unattractive?

How can I smile beautifully like you?

I get mad again, why am I never perfect?

I complain again looking at my ugly-self through the broken mirror

Don’t look at me, I don’t like this feeling

I want to hide somewhere, I want to get out

This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her, I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

Don’t tell me that easily that you understand how I feel

I might resent you with my ugly and crooked heart

Don’t talk to me, I can’t get along with you

Your cold fakeness behind your arrogant eyes suffocate me

Don’t come near me, I hate your attention

I wanna leave for somewhere and shout

This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her, I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

All alone, I’m all alone, I’m all alone

There’s not warmth, no one is next to me

All alone, I’m all alone

All alone, I’m all alone

i’m always all alone

There’s no warmth, there’s no one to give me a hug

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her, I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me

Just like her I wanna be pretty

I wanna be pretty

Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

credit: popgasa.com

by:2ne1

lyrics:teddy park

This song not only implies on feeling ugly but more on feeling insecure

As human being we hardly can escape feeling insecure about ourselves('hands up' I'm one of them)

Lately its got worse with all things going on.I'm feeling miserable to the point that I just lay in my bed all day doing nothin'.

NO no no....

Its not love sick but just erghhh

Question after question keep intruding my minds

What do I lack?Am I not good enough?Is it my fault that I let the chance escaped?I definitely can do better than that can't I?

In time like this I used all my might to refrain myself from being pessimistic but it just happen

BUT AT ONE POINT

I remember the infamous saying "WHAT DOES'T KILL YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER"

maybe Allah gave me this test to make me be a better person(everything happen for a reason)

even though its hard I should move on and make new achievement instead of hang on to the past

there're many ways to feel good about yourself

So people,I tried to stop it from killing me

You too should do the same if you face problem :)

P.S :As I'm writing this entry I realize I should be grateful for what I have

Other peoples have it rough especially in war zone.They got nothing to eat :(